a super whatnot

2011-11-08T08:02:00.001-08:00

you know sometimes in life,
you just never know when happiness will come and sadness will go.

and you will never know when everything just happened and different events will unfold on it's own

living by the hour I stop for every flower

2011-11-01T10:04:00.001-07:00

it's always our most loved ones that we find it hardest to love

Sadly but true.

and I should be less harsh on myself emotionally but stricter on myself physically. I really cut myself a lot of slack sometimes ))):

#justwhining here because I don't want to tweet too much and irritate the many.

And I hope I will continue to grow. And grow to be a better person.
Not a very nice person now actually ):

2011-10-11T08:50:00.001-07:00

I have been in this situation a thousand times and I seriously never learn a lesson.

Sometimes I really thank God for grace and wisdom.
In life, how many times do we make a wise decision and how many times we screw things up?

anw my birthday was awesome.
With the most awesome pple i have met in hall who have celebrated my bday without fail for the past 3 years that we have known one another.

Thank GOD for fwoc. For h3f ((:

2011-10-01T21:38:00.000-07:00

hello wake up. sept has ended and oct is here.

like seriously. oct? and i'm gng to turn 23 soon.

)):

reality really sucks big time.

work has started and i have gotten my first month's pay.

life doesn't feel much different just that i have to get use to the fact that i will never enjoy the freedom i used to have when i was studying.

everything is fine except myself.

i need to change. change my expectations on myself. i have none for others but tones for myself.

it sucks to be very self-awared cos it's taking its toil on me.

yet this is not the end, just the beginning.

anniecheong, ur future is brighter.

at least i know when im 35, there is some glimpse of hope. i hope.

it's gng to be an awesome oct.

i am sure it is.

just keep floating. just keep floating.

and soon jan will come and a new year is here.

2011-07-25T10:40:00.001-07:00

and i went geylang today for dinner!

first time in geylang without a car and people driving me around to redlight-district-watch.

haha. i really love sitting in the car and go rounds and rounds looking at the prostitutes.

this place is really one kind of interesting

SPOTTED: fake starbucks/ coffeebean.

when u can't convince, confuse the consumers.

and look at the small little "hoot" of durian that sy opened with all her might.

she kept insisting that there is still durian while i kept doubting.

and she was right (:

spore is filled with interesting and secretive places.

and i realised my most secretive hideout has been discovered by other people.

super sad and low.

)):

2011-07-25T10:33:00.000-07:00

actually i just want my life to be very simple.

doing anything that engages my brain a little

and being able to do whatever i want.

i just want to be carefree.

i realised the richer you are the poorer you are in ur soul.

sadly yes.

and indeed whatever will be, will be.

from http://www.ohhellofriendblog.com/

that's why i love us.

people get to indulge in diy and in creative projects.

and smile their lives away.

2011-07-20T10:14:00.000-07:00

went back for fwoc bbq today and it just seems as if i have never left before.

even though i no longer have a room to run back to when i am feeling bored,

even though i feel out of place amongst a bunch of strangers,

even though many of the old traditions have been changed,

i never fail to fall back and rely on the many memories i have created there,

and with the people who shared these memories

random last minute beer outings

12 midnight bday surprises

post formal dinners' craziness

rag day adrenaline and cheers on auto pilot

seriously. who gives a better fwoc.

sweetest rf's kids.

she actually made a tombstone (using paper!!) for her hamster who passed away!

5th floor girls

and the 3 of us ((:

still have others in my yr 2 and yr 3 lives

but i really regretted for mia-ing after fwoc.

nvm. guess i just have to make full use of what is left of us.

year came, year passed. many things have changed.

once was there, now is gone.

once was empty, now is filled.

2011-06-23T07:12:00.000-07:00

the nicer nj - new jersey.

valley of fire and serendipity

haight-ashbury: world of hippies, bob dylan and peace

the golden gate bridge and i wish i could see this bridge off my window in the future

omg. i have a damn smart business idea!!!

i hope i will make it work!!

2011-06-02T01:52:00.000-07:00

i am back from us. and i need a reality check.

and for once, i regret not going for exchange. very much indeed.

and i have learnt a lot abt freedom, individual rights and just being yourself.

and i went back to the annie in year 1.

it was a good trip indeed.

one that lasts forever.

2011-05-05T07:29:00.000-07:00

haha! found this on my notes when i was busy cramming all my notes into the brain.

dr h o n g pronounced wife as waifu! LOL

last paper ever as an undergraduate tomorrow.

i don't even feel anything and i am writing something cos anything is better than studying.

nvm with God's grace i will survive.

anw, the elections fever is finally going to be over.

and i am more prepared to face the singapore post-election.

personally, i feel that as much as the govt is responsible for us, we are responsible for them

and when we have made a particular choice, we just have to stick to it and play a part in creating the change that we want to see.

we can't just imagine that simply by voting we have already played our part in creating the change.

it takes a lot of hard work and it takes the involvement of everyone.

we can't blame them for not doing anything when we can't be bothered to be involved in community work or helping the poor.

is it during elections that people become civic-minded?

"oh, i am angry about the inequality between the low income and those earning a lot"

and i wondered what have those people who complained about these inequalities been doing pre-elections.

whatever it is. the thing is. hopefully after this election, we will be more proactive in helping those we feel unjustified for.

i know i will. -signs pact-

(: study.

2011-05-03T11:45:00.001-07:00

i think i care too much and hurt too much.
i should revert to the heck care me.
less trouble also.

2011-05-03T09:44:00.000-07:00

it's like my exams have ended but it's not.

it's like life has a larger calling but maybe it's not.

i kept praying and praying for what i should become.

and sometimes i know but sometimes i don't.

but i am thankful for what i have become.

these 4 years have changed me a lot.

to someone i think my nj school mates (friends???) might find it too hard to recognize

i think it's for the better. so good for me. YAY

i can't really be bothered with my exams.

it's like i can forsee a long road ahead of me and exams seem too trivial now.

argh. and ge>exams. definitely.

politics is dirty. and there's no point trying to prove a point.

and as much as one party is playing dirty. the kettle is as black as the pot.

so be chills pple. don't be too emotionally charged. (note to self.)

5 more days to US! ((: YAY! ((:

and so little time left to catch up.

but those who want to stay will make a point to stay.

i've tried. as hard as you would.

right at the wrong time. it hurts.

2011-04-19T09:39:00.000-07:00

these few days are filled with massive meet ups and overcoming-reality gatherings

it's like we are busy salvaging the last few moment we have of our youth.

ok... fine. of my youth.

this year i met my jc friends and nienies like 100000 times more than we ever did for the past 4 years.

i had 1 overnight chalet with the legendary fyf and it was one kind of epic. fun.

2 bbqs in a week and 2 excellent presentations. (imo!)

and lotsa other things left to plan. grad night. us trip. my career.

really ganna arrowed to do a lot of saikang.

but having fun is the most impt i guess.

i really need like 36 hrs a day.

being a to-be working adult is not easy!

and fighting for what i want is also not easy.

anw, good news over my causal chat. they kinda buy my idea ((:

a small little form of empowerment. is still a form of empowerment.

polling day on 7th may! thankfully that i am still in singapore.

gonna be damn exciting. gonna camp at like potong pasir, bishan, yuhua!

should i join the grassroots when my new mp comes?

i hate making decisions. sians.

why can't i be more of a leech )):

nvm. anw. if i do youth work. i will become more fit right? ((:

team excellent!

SGG.

2011-04-09T09:40:00.000-07:00

it has been a long time since i felt so strange about my life.

and the strangest thing is that i don't know what am i feeling

WEIRD!!

anw, today's a strangely naise day too.

fighting with the r c in a m k.

finding samantha in hv.

having fun with getai.

what a day.

shorts singlet and slippers day. phails ttm

so much for social action.

i am gng to take some initiative and make things happen.

I AM GNG TO DO IT!! ((:

and maybe i should really open my own shop.

and be my own boss! YAY!

people and car watch in hv is awesome but greeneyed too )):

Made In Dagenham - Official Trailer [HD]

2011-04-05T01:15:00.000-07:00

2011-04-03T10:24:00.000-07:00

strangers. friends. family ((:

never would have imagined that i would be so calm writing this paper that determines by graduation

in fact, i am getting more and more excited while writing it ((:

everything seems to be clearer to me again.

everything is placed where it should be.

i took this astrology test and the person said

i am currently experiencing one of the greatest season in my life

and i was wondering how true was it.

i guess, it ain't that bad.

i just need to be more decisive.

after tmrw, after this week.

things will be really awesome as i look forward to the arrival of may.

and to the day that i start working.

everyone's moving on. me too.

and i am really amazed how life never fails to surprise you and catch you offguard.

but no matter what happens, humans adapt.

and we will survive.

okie. goodnight worldlings.

back to being a words churning machine ((:

2011-03-29T09:24:00.000-07:00

awesome movies i have watched since i have handed in my first draft.

machiam like it's the end. -_-

as always, i ended up as the devil. and this sucks big time.

would you rather help someone dear to change

or watch and hope that he/she might one day change?

i found the no. 1 thing that pissed me off the most.

taking your loved ones for granted

and not being accountable for what you have said and done to them.

it really pisses me off big time.

and how do pple confront?

soft approach or a straightforward FU works the best?

i loved flipped.

it's really teenage. but it brought along so much depth.

most people are less than the sum of their parts

and you know why some people never grow up.

because people around them let them to be.

excuses for them will always be your own consolation.

2011-03-26T21:02:00.000-07:00

i want to open shop!

like a small little cafe. sell some clothes and make some scones.

chill my life away totally ((:

life will be simple right.

like how lyd is happy being a florist.

i must learn to be less confrontational, less kpo.

ignorance is definitely a bliss. hate the awareness part in my profession.

anw, don't think too much.

ism more important. be sensible.

life will be good. can't wait for work to start now.

to see what i can do.

don't be so caught up. annie.

Fading from the mind like a melody
Tangled in the reverie of time

2011-03-20T20:54:00.000-07:00

i need to oil myself and step up on the engine.

2011-03-17T09:59:00.000-07:00

it is better to lose your pride with someone you love

rather than to lose that someone you love with your useless pride.

wha! the most commented/ liked status in my history.

i guess it not only speaks to me but also a lot of my fb friends.

bring down your guard.

open your heart.

this world ain't that bad.

or you will slowly find yourself losing everyone.

people that stay will be those with benefits.

those who truly cares will be worn out. withered and dead.

goodnights world.

i am too tired. being sensitive.

being hardworking is tiring too.

因为我是你的家后

2011-03-16T07:37:00.000-07:00

accidentally chanced upon the clock at 22:22.

nice numbers. i think.

how strong is strong. how tough is tough.

how strong and how tough am i?

straylight run now.

and waiting for a sign.

2011-03-11T23:28:00.000-08:00

chord overstreet gush )):

haha! totally back to 16 yrs old pls.

whoever laugh at me ought to be shot.

i dl-ed the entire straylight run album. used to love them.

"The Perfect Ending"

Taken in context,
It's not a bad thing,
But when you start to pick it apart,
It gets so depressed,
It's that sort of thing,
That makes you think too much,
It's that sort of thing,
Makes you lose your objectivity,

So if you made it,
Just be glad that you did and stay there,
If you ever feel loved or needed,
Remember that you're one of the lucky ones,
And if it's over,
Just remember what I told you,
It was bound to happen so just...
Keep moving on,
There are no perfect endings,

You peel back the layers
And get down to the inside,
But sometimes you loose sight,
Of what it was you were trying to find,
And it's that sort of thing,
That makes you think too much,
It's that sort of thing,
Makes you lose your objectivity

So if you made it,
Just be glad that you did and stay there,
If you ever feel loved or needed,
Remember that you're one of the lucky ones,
And if it's over,
Just remember what I told you,
It was bound to happen so just...
Keep moving on,
There are no perfect endings,
No perfect endings.

i am not emos. but i think damn cools to be able to sing song and gush girls.

2011-03-09T19:02:00.000-08:00

so not the right time. but when is it a good time?

Chris Medina - What Are Words

2011-03-07T00:39:00.000-08:00

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words,
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words,
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

maybe i should be hit by a car and get into a coma.
this life will pass faster and someone will write me a song.

2011-03-05T19:45:00.000-08:00

the random soccer match that we played with the children at the elementary school. i miss going on yep when soccer matches with children were like everyday ):

YAY! peace-out tree! funny right.

okie this is it.

the fantasy surreal world should end immediately.

however, it's hard. really hard.

i needa start doing what i am supposed to do.

bye world. bye past. bye ideals.

2011-03-02T23:57:00.000-08:00

it's either or. neither nor.

2011-03-02T05:31:00.000-08:00

i have too many things to do. too many places to visit.

too little resources. and too many interpersonal relationships to handle.

)):

i don't know where my heart is anymore.

not in singapore. not in school.

i needa get a grip.

2011-02-23T19:11:00.000-08:00

korean-asean youth exchange programme 2011

best pple ((:

my surname in korean ((:

2011-02-10T09:34:00.000-08:00

going korea on vday night. haha!

((:

quite excited. but also can't wait for it to end.

so that i can finally start school proper.

who on earth takes 6 weeks to finally tune into the school mood )):

sigh. too many things on my plate.

too fickle. too greedy. i want to do everything )):

anw, i think the earth is tilted

and i love cydia and the pirates (:

they made me happy by giving me a pretty iphone interface (:

2011-02-07T02:48:00.000-08:00

haha. totally loving nienies ((:

i think at 23 (not yet), we look pretty much like when we were 16!

yay to forever young!

haha! but we spent a lot of time asking jeanopok when is she going to get married pls!

she is morphing into a derrek and vice versa!

i had great fun catching up with dev too! fellow bukitbatokians.

and it is a haps place now.

we now have frolick, witchery bubbletea and ROLLING PIN (opened by 3 guys)

haha! team america ftw. i felt that i have grown smarter cos i can talked to dev smartly!! ((:

i seriously need to stop nuaing.

)):

2011-02-02T03:23:00.000-08:00

it is the time of the year. naise.

people are like congregating at my house, feasting, laughing and chatting.

awkward group came and left. hurhur.

i love quiet places. really.

and i like affirmations.

not put me downs. though it might be just for fun.

oh. my cousin nt coming again ):

2011-01-30T08:56:00.000-08:00

family. more than fwoc.

like what ahbest said, when we do things in hall, it's for the people.

not for hall. not for the position.

((:

kinda miss hall. the freedom and maybe the youth.

i really cant come to terms that i am aging.

dr choo said that human life is uni-directional )):

we can't turn back time.

i just hope we will be forever in touch.

haha! zw actually translated the video that i posted that day.

really quite touching.

你的手我会甲你牵条条因为我是你的家后For your hand i will hold it tight with mine, because I am your wife

阮将青春嫁置恁兜阮对少年跟你跟甲老
Being married to you since young and accompanied you till you are old

人情世事已经看透透有啥人比你卡重要
I have learn to put down any other matters cause no one is more important than you

阮的一生献乎恁兜才知幸福是吵吵闹闹
I have devoted my life to you, to know that happiness is all about being quarrelsome

等待返去的时阵若到我会让你先走And till the day that we have to part, I will let you leave before me

因为我会呒甘放你为我目屎流
Because i am not willing to leave you alone to cry for me

(haha! i cut and paste from zw's blog)

i'm quite selfish. i don't want to be the one left behind.

i would rather die first mans.

2011-01-24T09:01:00.000-08:00

hurhur. Cash Dispensing Centre. thanks.

today is quite a big day. i presented some of my ism preliminary findings to the cdc pple.

i guess it's quite a big thing since they are all big shots? haha!

it went pretty well i guess. except that i mixed up the timings.

i thought it was at 2.30pm even though it was supposed to be 1.30pm.

thankfully i went out for lunch at 12.30 and made it back by 1.30pm. HENG TTM!!

i am really bad with dates and timings. sians.

till now, i think the year has been great for my school and work.

awesome in fact.

oh. and i might be going korea for some korea-asean youth exchange!

ALL EXPENSES FULLY PAID. this is like how awesome pls!!

my first time skiing! ((: maybe it really pays to be caring and naise. hopefully.

anw, yah. life's like this. take the first step and be happy.

hope and pray.

have some faith and trust. this much i promise.

2011-01-21T15:44:00.000-08:00

im perfectly fine like this

2011-01-20T14:49:00.000-08:00

my languages of love: quality time and words of affirmation

whats yours?
http://www.5lovelanguages.com/assessments/love/

2011-01-19T08:04:00.001-08:00

fb changed my profile layout )):

i freaking hate changes.

i guess i'm just scared of learning to adapt all over again and also of the unknown.

school is so not in my dictionary.

deadlines are still missed on the 2nd week of school/

thank God for friends (:

community work class today really got me thinking about what i really want to do in the future.

i am really very excited and interested to do community work.

but where can i do it? where can i start to have the biggest voice?

why are we not cooperating and coordinating services?

dr v. kept talking about how we are the biggest hurdle to creating changes in the community.

and how we should not be entrapped by our own limitations.

inspiring enough. but seriously. how to do it?

i really want to know.

so many things to consider.

so many decisions to make.

am i ready? am i big enough?

i want to be the voice that ripples.

haha. at least i have gathered a pool of interested people in my class.

hopefully, we are able to push for smth and not get suck into the KPI world.

today, i learnt about narcissistic personality disorder.

i think everyone has it somehow. how we crave to be affirmed and praised.

and sometimes, by putting other people down.

2011-01-19T08:02:00.000-08:00

i don't even know half of the lyrics.

but i always hear this song playing.

sounds naise i guess (:

2011-01-15T21:24:00.001-08:00

2nd class outing since our class has been formed.

cheryl aptly named the photo album - the leap year. haha. we will meet again after 4 years!

the dinner was highly random but it was still hilarious. and i had fun ((:

this is the neoprints we took on our first class outing and also after our promo results.

according to the pop quiz asked ystd, janvin and liy are the proud winners of a true njc-ian.

they can rem how many people were there in our class, the njc motto and school song!

damn awesome pls.

on our way home, terence asked who did i think change the most.

honestly, i think... no one. we are still quite the same. maybe a bit more learned or matured?

not very sure anyway. but the class dynamics was pretty much the same.

im glad. ((:

and i hope we can meet up again during cny. how haps is this!

alrights yay to 05a01 ((:

yay to nj. for us to be shaped this way.

2011-01-14T09:09:00.000-08:00

this week doesn't even feel like a school week to me )):

it is really quite surreal and i am totally missing all the deadlines.

i didnt even receive the email telling me that i have to submit my ism title today. )):

haiyah heck school. put my head out and face the wind.

these few weeks have been a little nostalgic. i kinda miss my nj life, my younger days.

life is too stable now. i also don't know what kind of drama i want in my life mans.

05a01 class outing tmrw.

i think it can easily top the chart of the 10 most exciting dinners in my life.

and i actually invited mr a leong for the dinner. hahaha! i think it would be a lot of fun if he really comes.

i seriously think i am not a very good person.

and sekretly a rebel )):

just sekretly.

goodnight worlds.

omg. this is damn cool. frigging 135usd!!!

should i buy another cover to protect the iphone cover?

haha!

oh and this week, i kinda love not staying at home cos i really want my own room )):

jiejie is back from her hols. both my siblins are not working and are perpetually at home.

i need my own space. )): times like this make me miss staying in hall.

2011-01-11T07:00:00.001-08:00

it has been a long time. seriously.
i think it's time to get back to blogging. blogging really helps me to recall my past.
those past that happened so long ago. memories so faded and blurred.

anw, this year has been a good year.
a good start i must say. and i hope it's sufficient to last me the entire year.

((:

2011 with a blast.

2010-04-23T04:22:00.000-07:00

for the interests of others at the cost of myself.

forced altruism.

2010-04-04T09:50:00.000-07:00

humans are so easily influenced by their environment, especially by their families.

i was just thinking how different would i be if i were to grow up in a super freaking rich family or with very liberal parents. what about me being the only child or the oldest child? what were annie become?

i am happy being who i am now. but i am just curious. so very curious.

i do want to change certain things in my life. but yah. it's hard...

and seriously,

the hardest is to walk away. and nv look back.

just keep swimming. and swimming.

2010-03-08T07:59:00.000-08:00

it was an emotion rollercoaster this weekend.
numbed. tired. upset. happy. back to usual. sad. back to usual. happy. back to usual again.

it will be better if more efforts were made. but how can i demand? how could i bear to?

this week is going to be a busy week. super busyy. assignments due-ing everywhere. presentations and mid term test. sians.
HOWWWW!

and now i am blogging and not doing my essay.
heck. go slp and do tmrw morning.
and hopefully i will wake up!

i talked to sis ystd and she told me how my family was before i was born.
it was like a sudden enlightenment. i was imagining sis' reaction when my mum told her she was pregnant. jiejie said she was very shocked but excited at the same time cause got a baby to take care of.
haha. how cutes! (:
luckily my mummy kept me.

mac vs pc. mac.

OH! visit www.ablessingaday.tumblr.com
i am gonna start a count your blessings tumblog account! ((:

2010-03-04T08:24:00.001-08:00

the truth is.
i am tired.

2010-03-02T17:54:00.001-08:00

yesterday's eogm reminded me of my fwoc days and no matter how much i used to whine about it, it is definitely one of my most bittersweet experience i have ever had.

if it were the other 11 of them again, i will do it all over again.
this time better. much much better.

who gives a fwoc? us.

2010-02-22T09:07:00.000-08:00

i wanna go back kambodia )):
i dont like school. i want holidays.
i wanna be cool and chill out at night. at a special bench. like the fat momma
emos )):

when i think abt the henderson youths, i really want to be like them
to have that carefree life. sometimes i hate being a goody good girl.
it's like i havent even seen the world yet. i havent got screen by police, witness a suicide, be at-risk.
i think i am secretly a deviant. but i chose the safer path. )):

we all look at them with envy, don't we?
at least i do. however, as a parent, what will my choice be?
to let them be at risk and then let them turn over a new leaf?
sians.

class 95's song is making me zZzzzz and emooos.
haha!

today's a really hectic day. lessons from 9am to 8pm. i havent had this kinda lessons before.
thank God I survived (:

i wanna do smth about my life. make it more purposeful )):
like xj said, be the poster girl! HAHAHA!

go back kambodia.
dont care abt the mosquitoes.

be alone.

"My grace is sufficient for you, 
for My power is made perfect in weakness."

2010-02-19T11:13:00.000-08:00

cheesecake making with selene and cheronne. it failed in the end ):

but i love the star and heart cutter!!! (:

vintage cafe in jb!
Kelong lelong (:
with the sunset! it was really prettae!

i dont feel like blogging anymore.

another times. zaijian.

mummy it's over. again

2010-02-17T12:46:00.000-08:00

don't be an idiot.

2010-02-16T09:08:00.000-08:00

mummy it's overrrr!

cny is over in just a blink of an eye )):

thank God i dont have school tomorrow and i am gng jb with aunty, val and liting! ((:

anw, i love the above pictures
i secretly think my bro is a little cute. my sis looks better real life tho. hahaha! (:

12 more days to the end of chinese new year.

and i should stop being so fickle!

i must be a bird. for life.

OH! i played poker for the first time. it was really fun cos i won 60bucks! yay! beginner's luck

and ky is a bummer. she asked me to be referred for counselling alr! ):

more cny parties please!!

popopopopopoker face

anw, to all next stop happiness fans!! THIS WEEK GOT NO SHOW!

@_)#^%*@_!*#@@ still must wait for one more week! )):

i cant wait for the last episode to be shown! NO MORE CRYING OVER THE SHOW! )):

2010-02-14T12:40:00.000-08:00

valentine's day is quite a nice show to watch!! (:
and a great way to spend your vday with the "i hate vday" pinata.
i am so gonna organise a 'i hate vday' bash with burn burn your photos event!
haha!

(:

ky was damn funny. 'can i ask you a sensitive question?'
haha. and her small quest to tanjong pagar and clarkquak's taxi stand.
and spotting muscular legs along the roads or hands over shoulders couples.
next stop: joochiat, balestier, geylang and changi village!

we got "stopped" by roadblocks! i wanna get screen by a police one day.
shall hang out at henderson more!

this year's new year is quite good. i tried harder to mingle around. it's hard k!
polaroids are helpful! (:

andd i kinda get it already. a new year has started and i shld be much more sensible.
i must not.
i thank God for friendships. really.

blocked nose ):

OH! aunty, suwi and i had drinking session before our visit to the old folks' home.
it was really nice. i seriously miss those days.
lychee aloe vera in replacement of lychee in the martini. damn creative lahh!
and nonsenses through the night squeezing 3 of us on a tiny super single bed.
those were the days (:

and old folks' home visitation was quite cool. my chinese and dialects still suck. malay too.
sians. and i have been squeezing with alot of pple in a small car.

okie. good night worldlings.
((:
to a more independent life.

2010-02-11T09:48:00.000-08:00

today's a good day but also not a good day.
:((:

nienie's outing was awesome! richie rich jeanopok treated us coffeebean!! (:
once a nienie always a nienie (:
and i met waisze and su ngin on the bus. so qiao qiao!! (:

i went henderson again and it was really interesting.
i secretly wants to join in their conversation and be part of them.
i can still feel that they are sanctioning some of their conversation cos we were there.
SO WANNA LEARN MALAY! and DIALECTS AND SIGN LANGUAGE!

they have so much more to share i guess.
truckloads of experiences. i think i lose out too much when i was younger.
not streetwise. not fun. just a guai kia. but perhaps it's more acceptable by the society.
they were really cool. they way they speak, the way they interact, their enthusiasm, their hospitality.
cheers to bravery to talk to them. i swear it wasn't easy to take the first step.

but dang, we forgot to take pictures of the area. can't wait to hang out there more often.

i think i am quite independent.
oh. my friends praised me for my good temper. (:
they tried to piss me off by telling me they all won't be coming to meet me. haha!
luckily nv fall into their trap.

but is it good or bad?

vday is a highly commercialised day.

cny's coming. the yearly reunion dinner is looming.
it's not that i hate it. it's just that... i wish we could do it more often.
it's quite fake to do it like once a year.

and bkt was fun!! (: yumss!
and tiger beer and good companionship at 4am and all packed in a car was fun too!
life in limbo and independent.

okie. better charge my phone.
hate it when the phone is dead.

nights worldlings.
i love nienie!

2010-02-09T23:49:00.001-08:00

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jiayou. jiayou.

2010-02-05T09:54:00.000-08:00

okie this is not my papple tarts. not so nice but quite nice! (I THINK!) (:
baking is really fun! i love time alone and baking minus the cleaning up!!

today is a really long day.
'i think you need a community.' so true. what abt friends?
nvm. think abt it another time.

today i tried harder to recover some.
with papple tarts! baking is good.

everything happens for a reason. remember this (:
someone's nick wrote: there's no charge for awesum-ness.
tell someone they are awesum today.
do it.

(:
no more k for c anymore.
it's too common.

2010-01-28T07:51:00.000-08:00

kelong with YY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAD! (: 9 years and counting!

it's friday again. TGIF! (:

i have absolutely nothing to blog about.

but i am quite sad that lyd is leaving and xl is already gone.

we haven even have our gathering yet.

i know it's not as if they will be gone for a long time. but it just seems that those good old days are getting further and further away. everyone is having their own lives.

me too. and i am guilty of that.

)):

LYD AND XL I MISS U!

i just msged gin and jean out for dinner :) diedie must have dinner!!

i realised i am busy building new friendships that i am neglecting those of the past )):

sians.

and forgetting my family too.

)):

oh!

renovaid is such a nice show. i cried.

EMOMOMOO!

2010-01-21T08:08:00.000-08:00

it is a nostalgic night. crescent nostalgia. hall nostalgia.
i've been through so much i realised. and i am feeling old. for once.
and i really love crescent alot. before tablet pc crescent.

i just talked to my neighbour and she's so cute.
i bet i hated her when i was her senior. it's the senior-junior thing in crescent.
haha.

(:

talked to tz too. so cham. but it kinda reminds me of my year 1 days too.
i love late nights. talking and just chilling. (:
all the best tz. more obstacles ahead.

i really want to be younger some times. to turn back time and do some stuff all over again.it was really fun. so fun. it's like age makes you less adventurous. but definitely more liberty.tradeoffs. and sometimes, being older doesnt make you wiser )): i should stop.

i feel like a biatch. seriously.

oh. i had tonnes of fun last night at botanical gardens with my kambodia friends. blog about it when i have the pictures!

goodnight worldlings.

2010-01-18T08:50:00.001-08:00

MY NEW NEIGHBOUR IS FROM CRESCENT!
DAMN KOOL! (:

2010-01-17T08:38:00.000-08:00

really love this picture (:

i dont know why though. but zs is a really good photographer! kudos.

but he's always not in the pictures )): i shall go stalk him and take pics of him! hahaha!

i am blogging so often. it just means i am bored.

hahaha!

i wanna go back kambodia and have no school.

this week passed too quickly and it seemed too surreal ):

bring me back to kambodia with mosquito nets and ah pek oil!!

i think i am a bad person. not evil evil. but just bad and sinful ):

i am unsure myself. of what i am feeling now. sucks.

buzhidao. bumingbai.

sorry.

anw, monday blues again. my xiong day.

happy birthday! (:

2010-01-15T03:26:00.000-08:00

i read r o z z's blog today and she is my new fave blogger after xiaxue.

can read her blog with this link

987rozz.wordpress.com

she's a really cool girl with her black clothes, star tattoos and i totally love her headband look!!

i am so not phantom in hall anymore.

it's only first week of school and i went down for 1 ihg, 2 hall dinners, 1 block supper and 1 3rd year girls supper. damn haps!

haha. so proud of myself.

and having sheares supper makes me feel so year 1. that feeling is quite good.

thanks cheesecake, duyao and huiling.

91.3fm playing trance and remixes. quite nice! i am growing on this club music.

tired. i am doing my readings when it's only 1st week of sch.

it's my first time after 3 sems that i am doing 5 modules. so tedious. i did only 3 modules last sems please.

i didnt know until ystd that hooters girls wear short skirts.

haha. thanks neighbour. hahahahahhaahah!

2010-01-05T20:11:00.000-08:00

2009 came and passed. undeniably, it has been a great year.

i did many things, came up with many ideas, met many new people and also made many important decisions.

it's the same every year right. when we looked back on our lives and stuff.

i just pray that ms 2010 will be an even exciting year! (:

i just came back from Kambodia and it is of no wonder that the trip was awesome.

every trips have it's own good and bad points and this trip really opened up my eyes to many other things and definitely knowledge of my own character.

i shall be less humble and say that i am very proud of myself. for not giving up a lot of myself. to always hold on to my beliefs. it just makes everyone happy at the end of the day!

i wanna thank God for giving me what i have today. and like what c-babe said, it's a gift.

thank God for this wonderful gift and pray that He will allow me to maximise this gift.

and to end off,

let me show you this cute and responsible little boy in kambodia. i think he sekretly has a crush on me! HAHA!

it's always good to be kind, hardworking and responsible.

2009-12-22T23:36:00.000-08:00

i just watched grinch online and it's ever so nice!
jim carrey is really good!
omg christmas is coming!! xmas in spore after 4 years.
hk. indon. india. china. SPORE! (:
tropical xmas!

YAYEE! (:

2009-12-21T06:57:00.001-08:00

how i wish God is an answering machine that tells me all the answers.

2009-12-17T19:21:00.000-08:00

slacking at home is no fun! it's getting a lil boring.
but these pictures and blogs entertained me the entire day.
pretty diys and sewing (:
love it!

hmms. thinking which one should i make first (:

i really love the elephant pouch but i don't like cloth pencil cases cos i hate seeing my cloth turn yellow.

)):

alrights. i am damn bored. and my canto is gng nowhere.

byebye.

2009-11-30T02:20:00.000-08:00

watch this fanstatic video.
i watched this in my sis' church ystd and it made everyone's day (:

you are awesome.
and i know i am going to do something that God has called me to do during my holidays.

You're the God of this City
You're the King of these people
You're the Lord of this nation You are

You're the Light in this darkness
You're the Hope to the hopeless
You're the Peace to the restless
You are There is no one like our God
There is no one like our God

For greater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done in this City
Greater thing have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done in this City

Chris Tomlin. God of This City

You spoke to me. And greater things are to be done in this city.
and my dreams are getting bigger and bigger.

these semester is coming to an end tomorrow.
though i might not be doing very well, but i can sense something growing in me.
an urge to do something. to create a hoohuh. to just stand up.
i am so sick of just sitting in my room and thinking of a better world.
i need to get on my feet and do something. and i shall start from myself.

first: love God more.
second: validate others which means love and apprciate others.

whatever i can give.

P.S. dear Lorddaddy!! can i get a least a B for my CL? it's really hard! PLEASEEEEEE! (((:

2009-11-27T20:45:00.001-08:00

i badly want to do something to revive my blog.

write something damn interesting and funny like xx

or something for advocacy like ky and grace's petition blog for foreign workers.

or maybe just mundane stuff but with insights like my cousin's blog that i accidentally changed upon.

aiyeah heck it.

*major spoiler* (I SAID IT!)

antm cycle 13 is the best season ever. even tho i really love laura.

and project runway winner shld be carol hannah.

i am so going to whip and sew during my dec holidays! ((: jon, pass me my sewing machine!!!

so ystd hs and i were talking about the antm models cos i saw fo's pictures all over queensway shopping centre. she is now a nike model. and celia ammerman, the super old (okie, not really. she's only 25) is now a prada model!!

haha! not bad right!!! she's wearing stella mccartney shoes and kenneth cole blazer.

and my fave model that season, london is now a playboy model.

*SCREAMS* i thought she was a street preacher. ):

on a more personal note. i went for two events recently. banquet of honour and run for hope. i am so proud of myself for the latter! (:

banquet of honour was basically a church initiated event to invite all the foreign workers in singapore to a banquet-styled dinner. there was performances and (un)LUCKY DRAW! my night was the myanmar night and my table people are really funny and spontaneous. they are working in some engineering company, fixing water pipes and electrical lines. i can't rem their names for nuts and i started calling them handsome 1, handsome 2.

at one point, my partner (sarah) and i invited them to dance with us and the other servers. 2 of them jumped up and started dancing with us! (: we had tonnes of fun that night.

i guess if we were to change our mindsets, a lot of mental reminders that everyone is equal in God's sight and what we are doing is for God's glory, a lot of the stereotypes that we once had would be dissipated right away. the foreign workers are really nice and fun if we get to know them on a more personal level.

the group of servers from vcf minus me and cara.

last sunday i went for run for hope 2009 and it is the furthest i have ran to date. this is a charity run to raise funds for cancer research. i don't usually run for runs like these and i got signed up cos ky wanted to run. anw, i am thankful that i signed up for it.

i woke up really early. at like 5plus am!!!! FAINTS. and i was really scared to use the hall toilets when everyone's aslp. i am damn hum chi. met zw who didn't slp the whole night. MADNESS. fads and huiyi came and fetch us!

christopher was funny as usual cos he told cara that he needed more oxygen and cara told his to stay near the leaves cause they give out oxygen. the race was started by ezzy who is a cancer patient survivor. he has only one leg and he ran the entire 10km with one leg, 2 crutches and a very strong mind!!i really admire him for that. if u were to google him (which i did). he has a very cute love story with his wife too! (:

the bunch of social work students!

i think this is one of my longest entry this year. well done annie!

and i saw this funny cartoon while studying for world religion module which turned out not as bad as i've expected.

from an american monk's blog which i lost the address.

okie. goodbye worldlings.

time for CL1101E. don't take this module.

2009-11-01T08:39:00.000-08:00

hello world. seems like a really long time since i've blogged.
below are the tonnes of bday celebrations i have had this month.

cara's bday

my bday

my bday again.

val's bday

alison and yiwern's bday

krist's bdayy

eunice's bdayy

tonnes of events this month. october the reproductive month.

thanks mum and dad for this nice accident.

being 21 is not much different from being 12 if no one treats you like an adult.

period.

2009-08-25T21:46:00.000-07:00

being in a dilemna sucks.
when opportunities come, can i turn it down?
i find inspiration in my friends. i find strength that i've never had.
when opportunities kept knocking on my door, should i take it all?

social work rocks.
even when many people knows nuts about our profession, we, as students are proving our point.
are we just volunteers, are we just counsellors, or are we just humans?
it's time to advocate. it's time to create.
it's our time, isn't it?

2009-08-16T08:30:00.000-07:00

I"m blogging with my phone! How cool is this! Hahaha! Technology rocks! :))). I just came back from malacca with some of the fwocers and it was reallyyy fun! And filling! I ate soooooo muchh!!!! I'm very very very happy with my life now and God is good all the time.

2009-07-24T10:27:00.000-07:00

i am very comfortable with what i have now.
very much indeed.
everyday is for a purpose
and God answers prayers.

and yay, 8 and counting
((:

2009-07-10T01:27:00.000-07:00

hello people i am back! (:
i wonder who reads this anyway. maybe except jon and i.
haha!

work's going to end. and that's good news.
i really think i need a break and have a nice holiday! (:
YAY! and going back to hall sounds really exciting!
i can finally be datedddd! WOOTS!

yay! time to get off from work!

2009-05-28T08:14:00.000-07:00

this week, my job took a 180degree turn.
it was nice. refreshing and interesting.
HURRY COME BACK

2009-04-11T14:10:00.001-07:00

EBAY IS MY NEXT BEST FRIEND!
EBAY RAID IS DAMN FREAKING FUN YET DANGEROUS!
WOOTS! CAN'T WAIT FOR EBAY COUNTDOWN! ((:

((:
YAY!
but i wish i have A LOT A LOT OF MONEY!

anw, uniqlo aint fantastic. so yah, drop by only if u are gng chalet at pasir ris.
haha!
tired but excited.

OHHHHHHHHHH!
i went to watch cats. crazy plot but cute sassy-shake-the-hips guy(cat)!
he's so cute pls. gush!
and i love the audience interaction. NICE!

nights worldling.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GUARDIAN FORCE! ((:

2009-03-15T07:56:00.000-07:00

[edited]

TGIO and TGFY ((:
i am so glad and relieved the whole episode is over. it really sucks to the maximum max.
and the thing is that it's over such a small small issue. nonsense annie.
kill myself ten times.

i have finally finished part of my work.
so tired. very tired actually. confronting my own feelings. confronting others.

goodnight worldlings.
goodnight to you.
i am gng to bed.

oh! i finally know what rihanna was singing in 'take a bow' and i always thought her names looks a bit like ribena.

2009-03-02T09:21:00.000-08:00

24 oceans
24 skies
24 failures
and 24 tries

24 finds me
In 24th place
24 drop outs
At the end of the day

Life is not what I thought it was 24 hours ago
Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
And I'm not who I thought I was 24 hours ago
Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You

;
now i know why i've to suffer in the past.
so that i can treasure my happiness now.

it was learning lessons. and i feel different
used to be so insecure. but now i am as secured as i could ever be.
thank You, Lord.

now i could be a little more unreasonable
i could be a little more motherly.
i could be. just be myself.

whatever happens, you have me.
not in the past. but the present. and the future.

STUDYYYYY ANNIE CHEONG! GET OFF THE COM!

"For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities,
nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature,
shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
Romans 8:38,39

2009-02-21T07:27:00.000-08:00

going to yukai's hse soon and soon later i will be leaving on a jet plane.
my first time on a budget jet plane.

hope everything will go well. it gotta be i think. it will be.
this time will be a familiar place. and an added incentive of being able to SHOPPPPPP! (:

i am enjoying my time very much now.
despite the schoolwork. i am happpy i can talk whatever i want. though at times i might be blabbering too much and too sensitive and too petty.
but i guess there's always a listening ear. everywhere.

i like the people-in-environment theory. it's so true.
a person's character is really by affected the way their upbringing. their life events. and their social environments.

a lot of time, you just need to change ur mindset to make this world a better place.
kindness begets kindness.
forgive but not forget (i dont like forgive and forget)

and i really thank God for you.

2009-02-18T08:24:00.000-08:00

zsx ((:

who gives a fwoc?

here lies love <3

MARKETING JUMPSHOT!

HAHA! i love this! jumpshot with the little girls! i am not even in the air pls!

hello all!

suddenly i miss china. i miss the slack slack days. days filled with children's laughters, complaints about the freezing weather, smelly toilets and also tons of chinese conversations.

but life was slower. slacker.

can't wait for my thailand trip ((:

to see witayah. to see pak sud. and the many many kids.

and simply take a break from the hustle bustle.

last week was filled with ups and downs.

i hate traffic lights. i love stir-fry wok.

i hate fri 13th. i love sat 14th!

i can be very very paranoid.

paranoid every mth.

life goes on! ((:

2009-02-08T09:22:00.000-08:00

this week came and passed too quickly.
too quick for me to even realise that it's already week 5 into school term!
this week is madness week. interviews. tuition. peer tutoring. driving.

oh did i tell u that everytime i go for my reproductive health module i will walk at a speed of 100km/hr? haha! i always feel like i am rushing for some emergency accidents! (choy! but seriously! no kidding!)
ok, that was an exaggeration. but i have been late for that module for this entire sem!! and it's like 15-20mins late when my tutorial is only 1hr long!!
stupid A1 bus takes like thousand years to come!!

i like what i am teaching for tuition nowadays. social studies is fun to teach but too much information for the students to digest. i think i just stick to the textbook. it's the safest way for s'pore's education.

there's many things to thank God about.
for family. friends and myself.
thank God for touching mummy's life and eventually to all my loved ones ((:
thank God for good companionship and supportive friends!
thank God for opportunities.
and thank God for heart, love and life.

good works and God's words.
humbling and bigger heart.
have glee in what you've.
be contented (:

events of the week!!

enjoy urself eunice tan! ((: have tons of fun and we will be praying for u! I've been! and true friends are all that matters! (: nuns forever.

people that made nj band more bearable! (:

and cheers to iphone. and cheers to friendship.

goodnight worldlings.

man u won west ham and tevez played the match.

till then. bonne nuit!

2009-02-01T08:52:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year to everyone!!!
i can't stand the happy 'niu' year pun cos my dad kept using it and he will moo-ed damn loudly and long! just because he was born in the year of cow.
this new year is spared of working and chill-laxing at home and running around is actually so much more interesting!

in fact, this is the best new year i have had since a long time! ((:
i do miss gathering at ahma's hse playing blackjack and collecting all my uncle's coins!

mj. steamboat. guitar hero world tour. blackjack. tennis. prawning. pool.
and TONS of angbaos. how i wish every other week is chinese new year. i will be RICH! :D :D

sch's starting (hahaha! maybe like 3 weeks ago!) and hall activities too.
beeeee-zy week ahead! can't wait for thurs to come!!!
MS THIRSTY THURSDAY COME SOON!! then it will be LONG LONG WEEKEND AGAIN!
section lunch on sat! (:

goodnight worldlings.
today i learnt that there are 4 hindrances to joy in this world -1) worry 2) guilt 3) hurt 4) busy-ness. and i think it's really true. however, i can still feel the joy from within.
thank you Lord.

c2c ooty, india! (:

if you like nonsenses, follow annie (:

chocolate mousse (NICE!) for guitar hero! (:

and if you like big prawns, follow jon! :D

MEGA BIG PRAWNS THAT I CAUGHT!!!!!!

and rem we once said, till death do us part?

the legendary guardian force ((:

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR WORLDLINGS! ((:

2009-01-20T07:10:00.000-08:00

ah dei is quite funny!

i am stuck for words. so much that i've no idea what to write.
this sucks. it really does.

i'm hungry. bored and tired.
haha. stupid auntie. tsks!

did i say that life's good? it is true ((:
i wouldn't mind spending the rest of my life like this.

bakgwa rocks! really damn nice lah! my bro bought some super hard bakgwa and it is super chewy. NICEEEE! (: I AM HUNGRYYYYYY!
but i can't keep eating bakgwa or else i will start looking like a pig!
tsks.

i am taking this reproductive health module and it's really fun(ny)! hahaha!

this is totally random. pardon me. i am gng to go cook maggi mee.

2009-01-19T07:56:00.000-08:00

hello worldlings! I AM STILL ALIVEEEE! ((:

life's good. i went china. back and school has started.

this year is a bad year. i am turning twenty one and many ppl arnd me have turned 21!

i am so lao lao already. damn.

anw, HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY JON! u are so laolao! ((:

hahaha! all these old people!

there's gng to be mad's bday bbq this thurs! then lyd's bday coming too!

OH! and i forget CHINESE NEW YEAR'S COMING! ((:

good food and more moneyyy!

yeah, china was good! as in i've enjoyed myself (:

i did many things that i've never tried.

shitting without a door and hearing people fart. putting fireworks and kong min tang (some chinese lantern that will float into the air). not bathing for 6-7days straight. slpping on the cold chilly floor. eating steamboat everyday! pluck the chicken's feathers and chopping them apart when the blood is still leaking. and most importantly, being the co-leader of the trip.

my fave laoshi!

and being the co-leader of the trip is the most important thing i've learnt in the trip.

and it taught me many things and showed me many things. self-awareness is key.

this yep stint is gng to take a break after the kryep.

maybe it's time for me to travel simply for leisure. i am tired. quite tired

perhaps i would end up gng for exchange? no one knows.

anw, life's good. hall's good. everyone's good

i am enjoying my life now. good companionship! (:

i played mj with my siblings and daddy. so cute! (:

2008-12-01T02:25:00.000-08:00

i think it's time for me to get over it.
way too long le, annie! please get a grip!

thanks!

8 letters. 3 syllables.

;

was reading my old blog. i realised i used to be quite poetic.
i made sense out of random words. i wonder what happened to me.
kudos to the teenage angst!
haha!

2008-11-28T00:34:00.000-08:00

i've been to this page twice for the past weeks. but i just don't know what to write down.
period.

i am PATIENTLY waiting for some nice kind souls to upload gg 12 on tudou or youtube or whereever so i can oggle at serena/ chuck/ dan and rufus!
HURRY UP UPLOAD LEHSSS! IT'S ALR THE END OF THE WEEKKKKK!!!

alrights. exams are progressing too slowly.
and yes, i got a lot of time to study for my papers so i better do well
but but but, i am like stuck in my 4mx4m room!
and my world now is no bigger than ablk.

yells.
enough of ranting.

on a brighter note,
i've been a HAPPPPYY girl! ((: happy happy happyyy!!
and also, i've my post exams almost packed. due to the first aid course i've to go
((:

you know sometimes, you really really don't know what will happen
unless you're willing to take that first step.

so ya! till then!
ciaosss! (:

2008-11-11T05:36:00.001-08:00

the sem is going to end. and for the first time in my uni life, i am scared.
i looked back, and i realised how much efforts i've put into my studies.
almost none.
i am panicky about my results now. how it will suffer. two more weeks to churn everything out.

Dear Lord,
please help me.

2008-11-03T07:53:00.000-08:00

night cycling which i left halfway cos it wasn't that fun as compared to last year's.
lesser slopes. MORE STOPS and yeah, an older heart. hahaha!
but i had fun still! mobby wu is too hot for those guys!

the bestest bestest OG! ((:
we celebrate everyone's bday. ALL THE TIME! (:

and that night with nice INTERESTING topic to talk to with leonard, mobby and yaqi!
be a man, do the right thing! (:

it's the right thing ((:
somehow there's a certain delight in my heart!

oh! i finally went down to haven today! i had a lot of fun! (:
the kids were awesome. despite some very troublesome ones.
but kids were always be kids. all the time. which makes them ever so interesting :D

and i will try, try my very best to be the best daughter.
sorry.

2008-10-22T06:57:00.000-07:00

i am terribly sorry.
but that's the best (i think)
for me. and maybe for you.

2008-10-17T12:05:00.000-07:00

i just had a nice supper (: super long one indeed.
i wished yummy happy birthday, talked to ahbest, andy and SUNNY! (:
i found it fulfilling. it has been a long long time that i really sit down and talk to people that are around in hall. i've been too caught up with my work i guess.

big big heart. i really need that.
i need to have it to sustain what i want to do. i realised sustainability is key
and i am very glad people share my passion

thank God.
(:

2008-10-17T11:57:00.000-07:00

and to the 3 of us, friendship goes a long way.

even after hall.

;

fave seafood place! TUESDAY $1 OYSTERS! :D

happy birthday zhijian!

kryep love (:

mambo love (:

2008-10-14T09:27:00.001-07:00

the previous entry was a tad late. but better than nothing.
my birthday continues. till today (:

went out for dinner with the usual seafood gang with wen mama and wangzheng
FRESH OYSTERS AT $1 ((:
met up with zhijian and the 4th floor guys at wala wala! the band quite nice (:
I LOVE MAROON 5's i won't go home tonight (:

anw, i love murli's line today!

on adoption
classmate: won't the kid have the right to choose whether they want their parents to be a gay or lesbian couple?
murli: did you have the right to choose your parents?

damn good lah!! nice rebuttal.
better than the 'i will throw it back to the class and let you all answer!'

well done murli! i love you (:

2008-10-14T09:16:00.000-07:00

who gives a FWOC? (:

fave girls (:

mambo love (:

and more (:

i am not a violent drunk!

thanks girls (:
and happy birthday yangy! thanks for being born on the same day (:

2008-10-09T04:59:00.000-07:00

regret making some decisions )):
i guess maybe i'm made to be more reliant.

nvm thens. be strong

2008-09-30T11:04:00.000-07:00

things will turn out really fine for all the efforts we've put in.

see ya guys tmrw! (:

'we are only asked to love,

to offer hope to the many hopeless.'

thank God we've survived.

thank God for trees.

thank God for journey mercies.

2008-09-30T10:44:00.000-07:00

happy children's day and selamat hari raya! (:

i love public holidays but not on my free day! but i've been self-declaring free days so who cares.
this sem is like my slackest sem ever with loads of other random activities and then making it super tiring.

back from china on sat morn. china is an awesome place.
every parts of this motherland has its own surprises.
haji lane + holland v, an area with all the clubs and pubs, goodlooking but chinese speaking bouncers in kunming. who dare say that c h i n a is boringgggg!!!

the trip there was filled with mixed emotions seriously. i'm not too sure of what i was feeling actually. i was homesick. so badly wanted to fly back to s'pore immediately on the first day.

being a leader for a yep trip has so much more expectations than i've ever imagined. it's not just having a program that everyone will get to benefit from it, it's also about safety, welfare, enjoyment and most importantly accountability. it's so much more responsibilities on my back.

and i wouldn't deny that there was at least one time, i wanna back out from all these (and all other commitments) so that i can just leave a laid-back lifestyle. but guess everything's too late and there must be a reason why i'm made to do all these. so i guess, i will just endure.

love endureth forever.

studying's taking a backseat. i better bring it back soon. ):

and i realised how i can make a big fuss out of nothing. i will find ways to rectify the situation but at the end of the day, i will just settle for the screwed up situation.
i'm like this, isn't it?
being fickle, being impulsive, making things better but in the end it doesn't entirely solve the issue.

guess i must deal with this weakness of mine.
and there's another weakness that i've been praying very very hard to try to rectify it.
pray that i will have a lot a lot a lot of grace. to forgive and ask for forgiveness.

nights people.
(:

2008-09-20T19:01:00.000-07:00

i fall short of perfection.
very far from it actually.
if i could, i would rather not care and live a carefree lifestyle.
why did i carry so many things on my shoulders and get into so much shite?

guide me, O Lord.
let me see Your face.
it has been a long time.
hear my plea.

2008-09-17T16:31:00.001-07:00

my life now is quite screwed.
i need something/ someone or just some miracle to bring me back on track.

now i feel like punching my face ten times, slap myself inside out outside in.
haha. but i don't know. i seriously don't know what i am feeling inside.
it's scary. that void. it's like... so scary and threatening.

i miss the feeling of having a purpose. of having something to look forward to.
this entire sem is so surreal. so weird.

i hope things will get better. please let it be.
or else i'm really clueless what's going to happen to me.

oh. i am leaving for yunnan on tues. mon night actually.
pray for journey mercies. pray for renewal of soul.
pray for success and good interpersonal relationship skills.
pray for good companionship (:

2008-09-16T10:39:00.000-07:00

Cause when we run, when we hide,
We deny whats inside...

life has been good. i think.
it's just packed with tons of work, plans, commitments and yah, hall activities.
studying, yunnan, slacking and just simply hanging out! (playing guitar hero!)

nth much to blog i guess. this blogging thing gonna suck. hahaha!
i less than 3 life (: wtshit
nivekis A PIECE OF HILARIOUS SHITE!

hmmms. time to get things serious i guess.
ystd was a day of mixed emotions.
and yunnan is getting SCARRRYYYY!

alright folks. i gonna slp early! my eye bags are damn horrendous.
nights worldlings!

What good is a heart if you're not gonna use it,
What good is a love if you're too scared to choose it,
If youre heart is beating, then its for a reason, girl,
If youre not willing to start, what good is a heart?

2008-09-08T08:29:00.000-07:00

and till we are old and till we rest in dementia,

we will always be the same. no matter what.

we miss u, gin.

;

i had a really bad sore eye. it was tearing NON-STOP

and her infamous "jean smile" but i was too happy so i couldn't do it.

2008-08-26T12:07:00.000-07:00

ain't that sweettttttttttt?

2008-08-17T11:54:00.000-07:00

pop yourself some pills, drink some cough syrup and sleep your life away (:

the end comes tomorrow.
xing xing yao bao zha
haha.

i miss those days. when smiles and laughters were real.
(:

i love You, Lord.
bring me back to You.

2008-08-11T07:06:00.000-07:00

i am recovering. i guess the adrenaline from rag day is pushing me forward.
but krishnan says i am highly volatile. my moods are still fluctuating. very much.

i think i scare d u y ao just now.
i started screaming while doing stuff for dating game and she suddenly rushed into my room
haha. don't worry. i am fine (:

i am strong. i know i am. i gonna stand up and be strong.
afterall, i am mightyannie for a reason.

you know, sometimes i really hate being me.
it's freaking tiring and it kinda sucks sometimes.
why do i bloodily poke my nose into everything?

i think i need a long break away from hall.
sometimes i think my smiles are gonna fall apart. do my smiles even look sincere?
i wouldn't know cos i am too tired to even bother. but the truth is, i really am sincere.

"guys relieve stress by going into their 'caves' to figure out problems ALONE.
they do not need girls to go into their 'caves' to help make them feel better."

hais. that's so sad. and i always thought a two-way traffic is the best.
but i am REALLY REALLY thankful tt guys will always be there when girls are in their caves.

actually i am quite upset behind all the smiles.
but i need to be strong when things don't go the way i wanted.
or else life will be back to those in nj. which is something i wished i will nv experience again.

i miss my ginnywife. my nienies
i miss my trio.
i miss my rojak.

i would love to turn back time.

2008-08-07T09:16:00.000-07:00

i miss my own voice.
i miss my own laughters.

tmrw's rag day. the day when all raggers have been working so hard for.
i am so proud of the rest of the OP comm. the flaggers and the raggers.
very very much. and i am sure their efforts will be paid off.

i want sanity.
i know how my mood fluctuates these few days.
i can be talking nonsense for a second and the next i am brimming with tears.

this is madness, isn't it.
it feels like my j1 days all over again.
and the feeling sucks.

on a lighter note, i am thankful i found friends who understand. baobaonya and khrisnam.
and the other guys (who might not share my sentiments ALL the time)
this experience is something that only those who went thru it will understand.
bystanders would nv understand the entire experience.

many might say that they are proud to be a fw oc er.
i would just say that i am proud to be one. but i am fine without it too.

the experience i have gotten from f w o c was definitely one of a kind. and i've learnt a lot from it.
and i seriously enjoyed being friends with the freshmen.
and i am happy to see one of my freshman turn from a quiet boy to a chirpy and talkative man.

these 3 mths haven been that smoothsailing and easy.
but the best thing that has happened to me was joining kryep.
the friends i've made. the care i've been showered. the love that i've found from all people.
it has made my 3 mths more worthwhile.

and i am REALLY REALLY glad to have loads of attention showering on me thru fw oc and yep.
i nv felt so cared for before. it makes me feel like i am of existence.
i guess i really need that.
on the other hand, it makes me really really dependent.
once fw oc ends, and i am back to civilian life.
would things still be the same?
or would things just disappear and pretend as if nothing has ever happened before?

no one knows.

i want to be nice cos i really needed that care and concern which i've been missing since young.

alright.

goodnight worldlings.
rag day tmrw and we are gng to bag all the prizes again! :D

we are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless.
we don't get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers.
we were made to be lovers bold in broken places,
pouring ourselves out again and again until we're call home

2008-08-04T08:48:00.000-07:00

i am finally finally back.
the bulk of my activities have eventually come to an end.
i seriously can't describe the feelings i am having right now.
a sense of relief? a tinge of sadness? a sense of regret? or a heart filled with happiness?
i am not sure of any feelings right now.
maybe just emotionless

too many things that we've been thru i guess.
it wasn't easy on many of us.
we lost and we gained.
experiences, friendships, family, personal growth and respect.

i seriously wondered how i managed to trudge my way thru the entire 3 mths.
looking back, it really wasn't easy.

anw, i am in a situation where i am stuck.
i don't wanna care. and don't wanna feel anything

just move along.

and all in all,
well done f w o c e r s. well done annie.